Locate. Eviscerate. Annihilate

Eviscerate the very fiber of my being that weakens me to the point of my demise. 

Locate, Eviscerate, Annihilate. 

Watch the weakened organ wither slowly to it's demise, throbbing immensely at first, 

& then

slowly, slowly it begins to fade. . . 

Fade into a memory of what we used to be and never will become. 

The Heights of greatness for which we were destined won't ever be reached due to reasons unexplained, unbeknownst, undiscovered. 

But how will I survive, she wonders, if he takes my most vital organ?

How will I go on breathing, being? 

Will I throw out the slept in sheets, never drive with the windows down again...

Will I cease to exist, to be...

will I cease to be without him? 

There really is only one elucidation. 

Locate, Eviscerate, Annihilate. 

Destroy. 

Forever Means For Now

In the absence of your virtue

I feel myself tumbling

In all directions, I am sailing

And I can't seem to keep myself centered in this truth

Taking Chances?

This is not a chance, it is a reality

A reality suffocating with flagrant solitude

A reality that chokes me cold and lonely

When you took everything away

And you did take everything away

The same day you walked away

I chose between the two

I chose and it was you

But then you didn't choose me too

And now I am here without you

Gasping for air, answers and reconciliation

Reaching out to no ones hand with meaningless unreturned anticipation

I find myself staying up days and nights in cycles

Simply so I don't have to close my eyes and see your face dancing behind my eyelids

And I find myself immersed in meaningless tasks to try and forget your smile

Your eyes, Your Words, Your Touch

That perfect touch...

But mostly I find myself wishing

Wishing so very much

That I was good enough for you

Or in the very least, enough.